A time for peace.

On 9/11/01, I woke up concerned about the thousands who died that morning, my friends in Manhattan, and about the thousands of civilians and soldiers who would inevitably die if we "carpet-bombed the Middle East" as some were already demanding.

That evening, a handful of friends and I founded Time for Peace, a student group at ISU, which called to stop a movement towards full-scale war and to instead seek out and bring to justice the terrorists who were actually responsible. We stayed up until 2 a.m. crafting a statement to counter those who loudly declared that the only response to bloodshed was to inflict more bloodshed. It didn't take long for a response to come in emailed threats of attacks upon us.

Obviously, we didn't stop the war, and we didn't stop the Iraq war which was "justified" on similar grounds just a year and a half later. None of us were older than 21 in the earliest days of Time for Peace, and we learned what we could on the fly. But over the following years, we brought together hundreds of people to reflect on a better world in weekly vigils and meetings and challenged the notion that our dissent was unpatriotic in a time of war.

There are many things to remember and reflect on ten years after the attacks on 9/11/01. It's important to remember the lives that were lost that morning, the heroes who worked to save them, and the lives lost since amongst American soldiers and civilians across the world.

But it's also important to remember that we're still vulnerable, and taking off our shoes on the way to a plane won't change that. We must show people around the world why we love our country and why they can love it too, by seeking to make our world more just and democratic, and by challenging your own notions of what that means based on the experiences of others. Whether you seek to do so as a politician, an activist, a volunteer, a policeman, a teacher, or as a soldier, today I remember and thank you.

And of course, thanks to those who helped build one of the most challenging and rewarding experiences of my life in the lobby of Maple-Willow-Larch ten years ago today.

We like sportz, and we don't care who knows?

Last night, almost all of my co-workers and I went to the Iowa Energy game at Wells Fargo Arena. The irony of holding this outing at a place which shares the name of one of major targets did not escape me.

Normally, I hate basketball, but I found myself having a pretty good time and getting excited about each basket scored. And later, I considered whether I should go again some time.

However, I should mention two caveats:

1. When the Energy scored 90 points, everyone in the crowd would win free fries. And when they scored 100 points, everyone won a free Whopper. I really like winning free stuff, so I'm pretty sure that's really why I was cheering. The rest of the game, which the Energy lost, was pretty anticlimactic.

2. Sometimes, I really like yelling and acting like a crazy person. A basketball game is a great place to do both of those things. The fact that the Energy are a development team meant that no one took the game very seriously, and I did not get punched in the face for saying things like "Throw the ball into the basket" at the top of my lungs.

So, maybe I don't like basketball that much after all, at least not for the usual reasons.

But at least this gives me a chance to reference this brilliant song by The Lonely Island: 

...in which I mourn the death of a chain store.

I don't much care for chain stores. Sure, I love buying things for absurdly low prices and having access to the products I want, when I want them. But I still don't like them, for the same reasons you've probably heard from every other bleeding heart.

So when I heard that Borders was reorganizing under bankruptcy, I can't say I shed any tears. They grew absurdly large by muscling out the little guy, and now they're being muscled out by online sellers. And besides, they're still in business for now.

But today, I was caught off-guard when the news that MY Borders was closing hit me like a ton of bricks. 

This was the Borders I visited on a weekly basis in the 90's, shuttling between their store and the Best Buy across the parking lot to build my music collection. As a kid in the suburbs with limited access to transportation, this was my academy. It was the store where I'd buy a copy of CMJ New Music Monthly, Giant Robot, Colors, and a smattering of other magazines, to which I could never commit a subscription, but that cracked the world open wide to me as a sophomore in high school. 

This was the Borders where a "friend" posted a joke babysitting sign with my phone number, that kept my phone ringing for days. The place where I finally purchased Bjork's Homogenic album as my head nearly exploded from hearing "Pluto" on a listening post. It was the place I regularly whiled away weekends while my classmates went out drinking, and it played a critical role in helping me decide who I am.

So in a few weeks, or perhaps a month, the vessel for many of my adolescent memories will be kicked away. Does this mean that these memories will no longer remain intact? While I realize the location is not the memory, I'm still frightened and still feel called to mourn.

It is alarming to be reminded that ideology and belief are no match for pure, unwarranted feeling.

 

Creating futures or rewriting the present

Nearly every day, I can discover some new powerful application available for free. And there are thousands more than will remain new to me.

At one point, I would download beta versions and freeware without a moment's thought, filled with anticipation for what new heights I would reach in my productivity. But eventually, I began to suspect that the developers weren't so much giving me the tools to create a better future, but convincing me that there was something I was failing to do right now without their software.

While some applications, like Launchy, have saved me loads of time and effortlessly changed my workflow for the better, this is very rarely the case. It is far too easy to spend fifteen minutes each day downloading and installing software described as "revolutionary," with the overwhelming sense that the status quo represents personal failure. And those are fifteen minutes that could be spent actually producing.

As I've grown older, I've come to accept that trying to solve all of the problems, all of the time, is a fool's game. Even if you find solutions to what you know, someone will happily introduce you to a problem you'd never considered. It's best to keep producing, find the roadblocks that truly slow you down, and solve only those with the least effort and maintenance.

Occasionally, new tools can solve those problems. The trick is to keep other people's "solutions" from writing your to-do list.